Monday, January 23, 2006

My guest Blogger xxx

I am very honoured to have a guest blogger xxx to pen down some of his/her very inspirational ideas in my crappy blog.

At least now my blog seems to have abit more substance... muawahahahaah...

Thanks xxx! To all the rest, enjoy reading.. kekekeke..

What does it all mean?

Has anybody ever wondered? Well, that's a exceedingly stupid nonsensical question isn't it? First of all, wondered what you may ask, secondly, well of course I have from time to time about something or someone or some place.

Life does not seem as it should be or could be, well but at the same time, seems so explicitly simple, if you get down to it. You consume, defecate and lastly die, it IS as simple as that, why do things like love, money, sex, power get in the way of all this? However, if you can even possibly fathom the possibility of life without any of the above shenanigans I mentioned, wouldn't it be just plain boring? So how do we or just me, manage a seemingly endless stream of nonsense gushing at us, which without it, would render us totally and utterly helpless. Water! Without it, you die. Too much of it, you ALSO die. That kinda sums up what life is doesn't it? I think, for all ends and purposes, this is the greatest and most overlooked cliche ever! Wow! All of a sudden I'm a genius! Thank you for your muted and sullen applause. Appreciate it!

Seriously, life goes by when we don't want it to (remember the last time you were having fun), but it is also frustratingly motionless when we want it to move on (i.e. the last time you were stuck at your desk). Can't these expectations blend in into a beautiful kaleidoscope for ALL the world to see? Instead of being two opposing ends of a magnet.

As subsets and also exclusive elements to life are love, money, sex and power. Simply because they cannot exist without life and vice versa, but on the other hand, doesn't take on a life of its own sometimes? L-O-V-E....the proverbial word that gets everybody into some kind of defecation, so deep, so slippery, so futile likened to climbing out of a wide, deep well. Why do you fall in love? Is it the thrill of being in it? Or do you relish the hurt that comes after it? Well most will almost immediately say that it is the thrill and sense of well-being they get when they're in it, but wait; is that what you are cheating yourself with or you really mean it?
Don't we all get so excited at a new relationship, but can't wait to get OUT of it before we even give it a chance to flower?

$$$....another element that is so compelling people kill for it. Sometimes I just want to go back in time and assasinate the person or collective group of people that invented MONEY. How peaceful and serene life would be when there isn't the endless pursuit of IT. Worse still, if you try to extrapolate the idea, you first try to get your hands on huge amounts of paper, with someone's face on it, and a couple of digits (intrinsically decorated, of course), but as you get vast amounts of it, you change it all to another piece of paper, this time with a logo and a few more numbers (not so well decorated). Food for thought.

ASS-EE-AXE.....one of the most powerful things in the world, which oddly enough, some love and some hate! Take for reference, Helen of Troy, the face that launched a THOUSAND ships! C'mon, was she really that good? Having said that, if used correctly and ingenuously, can be an awfully powerful tool. Why do some people hate it and some can't get enough of it? The answer is painfully obvious, it is the baring of your heart, soul, mind and body, which some are just not comfortable with. Can you imagine a reserved person enjoying sex? Does not make sense? I'm not talking about people that are reserved in new company or in a huge board meeting, but people with a reserved inner self. This inner self is something you only show to a select few in your life, but I firmly believe there are those that do not reveal this persona, and they actually carry it to their grave. These are the people that thoroughly HATE sex.

POWER! Even saying the word out loud makes you feel empowered, I CAN CONQUER THE WORLD! Yeah rite...But on a more serious note, what possesses a person to be so power-hungry? Have they already satisfied the other three complications/ necessities in life that they have nothing else to look forward to or they have utterly failed in their attempts therefore diverted their attention? Well, most will argue that a person that has too much money will then often get bored, thus concentrating all their focus on obtaining more power, is this a need for self-actualisation, or is this plain boredom? Personally, the merits of being human is this, we get bored all too easily, therefore we have progressed or evolved far beyond our cousins or other animals. When we get bored, we try to achieve something else. We as Homo Sapiens probably learned to walk BECAUSE it was a challenge, not so much as a necessity.

Lastly, LIFE is great, yet it is not. The key is to find your calling, which would satisfy you ultimately, but is that like searching for the Holy Grail, one might ask, well I don't have all the answers, I'm just a celebrity guest blogger. Decide what you want and go for it! Carpe Diem!

Friday, January 20, 2006

i am losing it..

"Life is fair, God is fair, the world is fair... Humans are ugly..." ~bibitan~

i just understand why some people are born ugly and why some people are born pretty. I have always wondered why there are rich, beautiful and kind hearted people in this world and why some people just arent so great.. I have always thought that maybe its be cos life isnt at all that fair. Actually NO, everything is FAIR. Humans are the ugly ones.

I have this partner at work, not exactly colleague, she kinda assist me in my flow of work process. She is very young and has a youthful temper. Rash and hot tempered. Insensitive and fouled mouth. She is very round. Like wat my dearest sweetheart likes to say: "OIL TANK". ya, i am sorry to say this. i am usually very cultured. erm, i am only qouting a fren. WAHAHAAHAHAHA....

yes, i kanna bullied again. SIGHZ, throw face. Me kanna bullied by a char bo 3 yrs younger than me. anyway not the first time also, xi guan le.. She is good at her job and has some level of effect on my work flow. So when she is in one of her mood swings, i also dun go disturb her. She called me 1 hour ago, with regards to her gift redemption. She started screaming that she is supposed to pick up some gift at this really ulu place. I am not at her mercy just be cos we have a business relationship, yet i give in to her screaming, and told her i would help her pick up her gift at this ulu place and give it to her.

She never even say a thanks.

Chui~ sometimes life is really chui... i just had an enjoyable dinner at merchant court hotel. Just one call can really CHUI everything. WHY WHY WHY!!!! seriously, does it hurt to be nicer to people.. a little sensitivity wouldnt hurt right. i mean i would appreciate a THANKS lor..

knn..

No wonder, some people got to look so unpretty, be cos they got a ugly personality to match it. The real beauty always come from within. A beautiful heart will transform the physical shell into the prettiest thing.

U reap wat u sow, u ARE how u look.

BLEAH!!!

Sunday, January 08, 2006

The art of being Aloof

"Advice are merely words... that may or may not be practical at different circumtances" ~bibitan~

Recently a colleague asked me how to be aloof. Then i told her "Forget about the past, enjoy the moment and dun think about the future." Actually being aloof isnt the best state of mind to be in. However, it does help to minimise pain and temporaily avoid sadness. Of course, there is no one human who can be totally invincible to emotions. i have the ability to keep most of them at bay be cos i have one very good practise. i always bury things. For alot of things that i do not wish to remember, i will just like dig a hole in my brain and throw everything and start cover everything up. Its like burying the dead. WAHAHAAHAHAH... oh, plus a big big coffin to seal everything inside before burying.

Perhaps this is why i like to drink so much, u cannot remember things very clearly. When u drink to a certain point, u become abit slow. Yet still can be very sober. i reserve the view that NO MATTER HOW DRUNK A PERSON CAN BE, that person is still very sober. Indeed. i have experienced a few times myself, get myself really drunk and i still can think rationally. its only the guts that got abit bigger.. WAHAAHAHAH....

ok, i stop my rubbish. let me share about some life lessons again.. kekekeke....

i am always appreciative of everything. Maybe i grew up the hard way so thats why i can be thankful. Some ppl cannot, they are always blaming other ppl or the situation or destiny for making them miserable. OK, tell u wat, develop this new practise in this new year 2006, ALWAYS BLAME YOURSELF FIRST, before u point finger at anyone else.

If u fall down, dun blame the slippery floor, your are NOT careful yourself. If u fall out of love, U MUST HAVE CAUSED IT in a way too. Maybe you never love that person enough or u love that person too much, suffocating him or her. If someone says that you are fat, PLS go look into the mirror, are u eating too much? Unless you think that you have tried your very best and everyone else beside you agreed that you have tried your very best, then go ahead to blame ill fortune or fate or destiny or whatever you call it.

No one person is an island, everyone is inter-related. I used to have this ex boyfriend who like to litter. I always ask him to think about this scenerio: you threw an empty can on the floor and walk away, a few hours later an old frail woman who simply cant see that well, stepped on it and fall down. Broke some bones or suffer a stroke. You do not have any idea how your empty can will cause such damaged do you? Alot of things are just such that, YOU DUN KNOW. not that IT DOES NOT HAPPEN. Thats why i dun litter, i always look for dust bin.

Also, if you ever wanna kill yourself, THINK. As i have said eariler, everyone is inter-related. Everyone is here in life for a purpose. Once you served your purpose, you will die no matter how much you wanna live later on. So do not end your life earlier, no matter how unbearable it is. Take for instance, your purpose in life is to save a drowning kid when you are aged 40, after which you will die automatically in a car crash. Due to some woes that you THINK u cannot handle, you kill yourself at 27. Then the kid died. Alamak. You like that will go peacefully or not. I am not talking about how sad your parents and eveyone will be, i am talking about the whole meaning of your existance.

Oh, how about the story of a little boy playing a ball can kill a man driving a car? The boy was harmlessly playing with his new soccer ball. It rolled out to the road, the new nervous driver screeched to a halt to avoid hitting the boy who ran out to retrieve the ball. The young boy was unhurt, blinked twice and went back to his game. The shocked driver drove for another few metres, suffered a heart attack and died. And you always thought the world is revolving round you huh? You dun exist alone in this world le..

No, i do not think that "ren ding sheng tian" (human's will can change Fate). I believe alot of things are predetermined but there are still room for you to make good out of your situation. Heaven is more merciful than ruthless. There are alot of opportunities to break through your plight.

ultimately, wat i wanna say today is, blame yourself first. AND You are never alone.