ME, thy queen!

Just realised that i never blog for such long time. No wonder i felt so belt up and unreleased. This is the 2007 me. Kinda close to the perfect me i wanted. Maybe a sharper nose? LOL... never mind, human must be contented la. if not will be unhappy everyday.

So far work has been kind fulfiling. Filled up almost 12 hours of my everyday life. i am usually physically tired at the end of the day, but still mentally empty. I wonder how ppl survived on the success of their career. its just not enough. At the end of the month when i calculate the amount of money and target i hit, i felt satisfied for half an hour and start to wonder about the meaning of my life again. Ting says that i am too free. I tend to agree. Maybe i just like to think too much, my mama says i will be one of those crazy pregnant woman who get depression then try to throw their new born down the flat next time. I couldnt agree more. I probably throw my future husband down too. LOL... oh god, should anyone be reading this, i bet i will be a spinster for life.

Its ok la, i din intend to get marry also. I cant imagine being stuck with someone for the rest of my life. Sounds pretty scary to me. Hopefully my mindset will change but seriously getting married for the sake of getting married is the last thing on my mind. Neither do i like kids. oh man, such rowdy things. oh well, i was a very quiet kid. Damn.. i think i am sounding more and more like a cold blooded mammal.

In any case, i do hope i can become abit less feeling ya. Though i do love to drown myself in sorrowful atmosphere and feel completely numbed and helpless, i am still too rationale. Its like a never ending conflict. sober-drunk, sober-drunk, sober-drunk.

At this very moment i am so so sober.

Should i buy the LV lockit? Its such a beauty..