Lost and found.

i need to bring a hammer out wherever i go next time.

In case i go missing again, Pls take it out from my bag and hammer me.

Or jus punch me pls.

-_-''

The very cute me is back. YEAH.........

i feel so bimbo once again. Yippie.........

i need to give myself a pat on my shoulder.

*pat* *pat* good job princess. welcome back.

The Rescue Mission

Code Name: Project B

RE: In Search of missing person

Victim: Bibi Tan

Target Suspects: Irrational yiks, Greedick

Victim has apparently been consumed by the suspects who made victim disappear from earth surface, only to be replaced by a walking clone who looks everything but acts nothing like the victim. Code Red alert.

Clone now under control, Under going brainwashing experiment to wash off all unnecessary thoughts injected by suspects. Clone is almost cleaned up at 99%. Clone will lead the rescue team to victim hideout once the cleaning process is 100% done.

Victim suspected to be hiding in denial city.

Mission starts.

Deadline: Immediate.

Let me bring Bibi tan back to you again.

The Happy Bibi Tan that you always know.

Purple Perfection

i believe. i still believe. i will believe. i must believe.


Everything happens for a reason. Many things are done without a reason.

Fragile, handle with care. Break my head with thy glass.

Softener makes clothes sooo comfortable. Some Softeners gives me rash.

Dettol kills germs. It makes my skin dry.

U make me laugh. U make me cry.

The world is round. Why do some ppl think in a box.

Slowly. Time is impatient.

No waiting. Pls take ur time.

Drink. Stay Sober.

Laugh, watch that ur jaws dun drop.

Love, as if you have never been hurt before.

Imagination is the start of all creation. Did i create you into my life or your mama did?

Cry, because the world is beautiful.

Hate, it grows from love.

Jealousy, is getting sore about others have. Whats so good about having things that dun belong to u?

Envy, but how do i measure my beauty and her beauty?

Name, memories come flooding ur head along with it.

You, i dun even know you. Why do i hear so much about you.

Lets learn from past mistake. Lets be very careful and very polite not to make mistakes.

Communicate! oh i say the wrong things again?

Hug. let it jus remain a word. It is not a tangible act in some dictionary.

Imperfection is perfection from within. I have a beautiful heart.

Independent is dependent from within. I have a strong outlook.

Incurable is curable from within. Everyones' heart has been broken before.

Purple is not a colour. It comes from red and blue.

Lets have a spelling lesson. Its not enough to know how to pronounce their names.

Oh dun touch me. I have a delicate heart. I might be broken into pieces.

Fire extinguisher puts out fire. It burnt my brother's skin last week.

I see ur angelic intentions. Its carries devilish consequences.

U see my devilish outburst. You forgot my innocent little wish.

Oh yes, let hugs and kisses be WORDS. I must remember they are not tangibles.

Sexual Equality! i am woman, pls hold the door for me. oh you are man! let me be so meek!

I dun wan a bolster. Bolster cannot hug me.

Love should be diabetic. Ah that sweetness.
oh but the checklist follows: injection twice in a day, pop many pills, see the doctor every 3 months, exercise regularly, take less carbo etc etc etc...
oh not so sweet after all.

Love shouldnt have strings attached.
hmm... lets make everyone happy and look really happy.
lets take time and do everything this way, that way and the correct way.
Lets attached everything to love. But the strings.

I want to do that!!!
*slap*
oh its stupid ar? oh HA HA.. i was only joking.
(pls tell me you are joking too)

I miss you!!
*slam*
oh we met jus the other day??
oh sorry, my definition of 24 hours is much longer.
sorry, let me fine tune my watch again.
i will miss you after 48 hours the next time ok?

I loooooeeeeee u.
sorry, i lost the V.
I think u ate it some time back.
HA HA.
*bleed*

Look! so sweet!!!
(i hope you din notice that i was affected by your previous sentence, but oh well, bimbos are well known to be infallible to hurting remarks. Lets act bimbo!!)

I am tired. Lets go back together and watch vcd ok?
(shit. I din know voices of the heart are perpetually on MUTE mode.
hello, can u hear me?)

I am so corny today!
I am just Bibi Tan.

Thank you for making me so tough.
so tough that i must always seem all right.
So that i will not spoil anything.
to preserve your serenity. Your.

Pre Birthday celebration Jittery

its de time of the year again.

year after year i will look forward, plan, get excited then i will get jittery. -_-''''

wats wrong with me. I am such a pain in de ass. LOL...

I recalled last year's. It was good. A stranger said i looked as if i am a rich man's kid.

This year will be better.

We are all naturally born swimmers

as u see, bibi tan is not easily amused by jus anything.

esp motivational speakers.

oh well, everything has got its exception right.

last night i heard this:
"each and everyone of you are naturally born winners. U all beat 500 million other sperms to swim to your mum's egg to be sitting here today!"

WAHAAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHA..................


then i went to goggle again. This is wat i found:


"How many sperm are released in each ejaculation?

there are 20-100 million sperm cells per milliliter, times 2 - 6 milliliter per ejaculation gives 50 - 500 million sperm per ejaculation.
men with less than 20 million sperm cells per milliliter are considered subfertile.
average sperm density has been reported to have dropped from 100 million per milliliter to 50 million per milliliter in the last 30-40 years. damn enviromental pollution! "


There! No wonder i always feel i am DAMN SPECIAL. tsk tsk..

I always knew i am a masterpiece.

I love me. Hugs. kisses. xx00.

curry me

3 days can form a pattern

21 days can form a habit

3 years form a lifestyle.



5 months can numb a person.

-_-''


but why do i miss her curry mee and soups suddenly.

i need some MORE love.

MORE MORE MORE.


-_-''

i think i m flying myself out b4 my mental health fail me.

i cant believe it AGAIN!

i was blogging about a short trip yesterday.

A client cum fren called me out of the blue and faxed me a promo his travel agency is having.

a 2 day 1 night batam trip with fireworks performance.

thoughts are so powerful issit it?

FLY!

i cant wait for my next holiday.

from the looks of things, i guess i jus gotta wait till May, wait till my company fly me out.

i tot i always hated to travel be cos of all the packing. I guess its not the packing part.

its the person that u are flying with.


cheers.

remember ppl, if all fails, there is always beer and alcohol.

there is always time. we are always young.

we will always get over hurt.

we will always stand up again.

we will love again.

we will always be loved again.


yesterday a stranger was extremely alarmed that i spent so much on my sis's dress that she prob gonna wear for a night.

'oh, can see u dote on ur sis alot hor.'

'oh ya man, all 4 of them. i heart them'

'thats very nice!'

'ya, i know. me le?'

'NO WORRIES! wat goes around, comes around!!'


-_-''

still, i hope she is right.

ok, i forget one last thing. IF ALL OF THE ABOVE still fails, there is something call religion.

u go either go church or temple or wherever that offers u the greatest consolation.

someone still loves u out there or should i say UP THERE. heh.. according to alot of my frenz. oh well, alot of singles who still look SOMEWAT happy on the surface, have very strong faith in some kinda religion.

continue breathing, hard. Cos u never know if the shit you are facing, is the last bit of shit you are facing.

As proven by Bibi tan herself, unless u are able to keep your spirits 24/7 in a happy state, yes, life is still kinda painful sometimes. I understand we are humans. its hard. no worries, we are all in the shit together. Com'on there are prob millions of ppl falling in and out of love everyday. Heal ok, get glue and glue urself together. Heal. it will heal.



i was browsing thru a fren's profile and saw some holiday pictures. some kinda tropical island.

Maybe i should jus buy go and buy a ticket and fly myself outta here. Maybe i shouldnt sit and wait anymore.

the coconut trees were almost waving at me.

the sea rushing to me.

i hear the waves.




Yes, i know.

I finally need a break.

Help. i think i need help.