enough is enough is enough

life is too complicated on its own alone than to try to read every single soul living it as well


I am going down rapidly in a downward spiral. can almost feel and understand a suicidal's emotional process. somewat close. although i m sane enough to know that this is only temporary, in various attempt to climb out of this mud, i seem to sink further in. All the boozing n medication havent been able to numb me enough to face the countless rejections and confusion this week.

The senseless rantings going thru de mind is powerful. It sucks dry your energy and bring uncontrollable sobbings. somehow the concious mind seems to be put to sleep and the voice gets louder and louder. Following that, your heart probably starts to ache. Real badly. U ask yourself, wat is missing? Wat was the crack all about? Who came and who left? Was who ever there in the first place.

Was thy mistaken. The question is very often routed back to your ownself. Funny right. When u were being let down, u will start to look to yourself for an answer. u probably feel better when u can find enough reasons to justify that, YES Its YOUR fault. Not his or hers or theirs. Right.

Yes, thats exactly how thy's feeling at the moment.

I was mistaken once again. A mistake so wilfully committed.