Envy, Pride, Greed, Lust, wrath, sloth and gluttony

I was reading my previous post. oh, i was so determined then. spoil~

"Lose the battle but not the war" ~told to bibitan by the very suave Mr chow~

neh, i never lose the battle, the roadshow turned out fine, my branch managed to produce 61 cases at the end of 3 days. All right, i should give credit to some of the branch people. Yes, some of them tried. Amazing. I saw more efforts put together in the past 3 days than the half year i was sitting in my little cubicle. chui~

Oh, i got to give credit to myself too. I was working like a mad cow, working 12 hours straight, refusing to waste time on lunches and trying to tag customers myself. Tag customers, something that i am always unwilling to do. But i am doing it for save my ass. Or rather my face?

After all the excessive efforts and stress, I began to wonder what was all that for. Which probably gonna explain why i am feeling so sore and bitter about everything. Once again. pui~

Ya, WHAT WAS ALL THAT FOR? was i trying to show that birdbrain anything? FUCKING HELL, she was not even here, she ACTUALLY GOT 3 DAYS LEAVE APPROVED ON MY ROADSHOW. no, its not her. I am not bothered by birdbrains who post no threat to me.

Then WHO IS IT, WHAT IS IT. I dun put in efforts unnesscarily. IT MUST HAVE BEEN FOR A PURPOSE. why do i care so much for? WHAT DID I WANNA PROVE!! i got the number of cases that my big big boss wan. SO WAT.

will he be looking at me at a different light? will he recognise the efforts that me and my branch put in? will he notice my existance after all these shit. neh. he probably dun even know how to spell my fucking name.

oh, i am whinning. WAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAAH.... and i was writing in my previous post to remind myself, not to feel sorry for myself and help myself.

spoil~~~~~

forget it, i tried. Dun have, SUAH.

So this is how things goes:

First, i ENVY people who have it all and is forever sitting on the top, Second, my PRIDE makes me work abit harder, third, my GREED make me wanted more and LUST made me want everything BIG and ahead of everyone, then WRATH sets in when i couldnt get it. After getting all worked up and angry, i become a SLOTH and refuse to do anything anymore. Then i start to eat 6 meals a day to fill my emptiness up and become a GLUTTON.

WAAHHAAHAHHHAHAAHAHAHA....... see, i know myself so well. SPOIL~

i think nothing could be worse when u, yourself perfectly knows wat your fucking problem and u just cannot stop yourself slipping into that cycle!!! Why am i always so rational and drunk at the SAME TIME.

oh, and miss teo is flying off for 10 days. great... 10 days... no one's gonna chui with me and i only wanna chui with her. WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA....

Come to think of it, i should not have been so ambitious. From the very first few initial blogs, all i ask from this job is enough money to open my bottles so that i can chui. Oh, i should be more contented with my bottles and stop thinking about anything else. or even anyone.

Ya, i got enough chivas and tiger every month to make me drunk every single day. Hmm.. i achieve my objectives right? why am i complaining?

LOL~ This is a happy bibi tan typing once again. She has successfully talked herself out of her miserable mood cycle and is able to function. SEE, blogging is good. Like i mention in my very first blog, blogging is good for health. GOOD for the mind. Good for rationalising your problems. Good for self consolation and self motivation.

Yeah, i finally see the light ONCE AGAIN! I wanna thank myself and whoever for showing the light to me. wohohohohohohohoho.......... must remember to pay PUB and keep that fucking lights on man!!