Karma will exist

“Nothing really matters, everything else does.” ~bibitan~

At this point of time, I am fuming with rage. I really dun understand why I always get bullied. But, but, being angry will usually affect my stream of thoughts and inner peace. Thus I am trying really hard to keep my cool and look for some form of release now.

Ok, one very important lesson of life that my dad always tells me is:

Always leave a way out for other people. (liu yi tiao hou lu ge bie ren zou)

Meaning, no matter how much injustice, how much grievances you suffered, do not push others to the wall. Example: X is always back stabbing you; one day u managed to get hold of some evidences that will break X completely in his career/marriage/life; my dad’s teachings is to just let it go; do not wreck other people’s life the way they wreck yours.

I remember this hard and well, this has been my character anyway, not exactly the very vengeful kind. Ya, I am full of rubbish about complaining or getting revenge, ultimately bibi tan is an empty vessal, make a lot of noise but no action. I find it hard to get angry, even if I do, it will be when the unfortunate incident has passed for like 4 hours, then it will suddenly dawned on me that I should get angry.

Ok, it has been 10 hours since an unbearable event took place today. I have been keeping my cool well. BUT BUT, I am bursting soon. It took me 10 hours to realize that I SHOULD HAVE really flared up at that woman this afternoon. I ought to.

Mdm xxx called me at 12 noon. She claimed to have seen me the day before when my branch was having a roadshow. Well, roadshows are generally busy times for me, thus I have been unable to blog for the past 2 days. I cant exactly recall her properly but I asked her how I can help her. She asked about free gifts for customers who do not purchase any products. I told her that all customers at the roadshow can receive free door gifts regardless of whether they buy any products or not.

Mdm xxx: “ I never receive any gifts”

Bibi: “oh, so sorry, I must have overlooked. The door gifts are mainly pens and packs of tissue”

Mdn xxx (raised her voice a little): “ you never let me scratch the door gift card, HOW I KNOW WHAT I GOT? ”

Bibi: “ so sorry, I can give you both”

Mdm xxx (shouting): “ GIVE ME BOTH?! You insulting me or wat? I am not those typical ah sou who is out for free gifts!!!!”

Bibi (weak): “I never mean that.. I was just being fair to you since you do not get the chance to scratch the card, I will just give you both.”

Mdm xxx (screaming) “ WAT FAIR, let me tell you, wat you did is VERY VERY WRONG!! ”

Bibi: “ sorry mdm, this is really a case of overlooked, I was probably busy or tired out, that’s why I did not give it to you. Usually I give it to my customers.”

Mdm xxx (sarcastic and at the top of her voice): “ busy? You busy? HA! You were sitting in your office doing NOTHING LOR! Like that call busy ar?! I TELL YOU, I know A LOT OF people in your branch. What you did is VERY VERY WRONG!!!”

Slams phone. Doooooo…………………………………

Ever wonder why I am always numbed about everything. These people out there really kills your zest for life.

Damn it, I feel like crying. Angry until wanna cry.

Leonard, I hope what you said before its true. There is such thing as KARMA right? I choose to believe you this time.