The day you went away

"The whole meaning of living to is to find a meaning to carry on” ~bibitan~

Everyone needs some space to breathe. I need an extra large space. Then again, if u give me too much space to breathe, i will wanna look for another space that is not so vast. Women. Can be very hard to please. WAHHAHAHAAHAHA....

One very significant thought i have recently is: YOU WILL NEVER GET WHAT YOU WANT. sighz.. this is a very sad phrase, trust me. Very often, you will yearn for something, someone, some place, most likely you will not get it. As life goes on, i have learnt to do without alot of things and people. I guess its good enough that you treasure those moments when u have those things/people, or just come slightly close to having. It is very sufficent.

I am someone who carries a huge luggage of memories along my life. I keep alot of things in this luggage, very often others dun realise that i can be sentimental. Sometimes when i am bored, i will start digging alot of things out. I will think and recall.

There was this incident at the hong kong ocean park. There is this little chubby china boy who stepped on my toes twice on 2 separate occasions. erm, ocean park is a BIG BIG place, spread over a little hill. YES, and he can still manage to step on my toes TWICE. argh! dun ask me how he did it. Nonetheless i remembered his round round face and tiny eyes and i told myself i MUST STEER CLEAR OF HIS PATH.

Then i came to the ferries wheel, the most harmless ride. Someone bumped into me in the queue. Its him. sighz.. i was like... *DUHZ* why u again!! never mind, i will ren. suddenly, someone tapped on my shoulders. The little boy's mother said to me

"sorry, but i am scared of heights, can he share the same ferry's wheel cabin with you?"

"............................................................."

i was speechless but i managed to mutter an "ok..."

And so, he being so tiny and round, he climbed into the same cabin as me..... watching him, i was like looking at a little ball. I was so helpless. He looked at me blankly and i stared back with disgust. As the cabin was moving up, i begin to feel abit scared. Erm, it did not occur to me that i am not very good with heights either. I tried to remain calm by looking at the manificant scenary and the round round boy. Not sure if it was because of the intense insecurity, i started toking to him. Under extreme circumstances, human do behave weirdly.

"wats your name"

*blank face*

"how old are you?

*gestures a five*

"where you come from?"

*shanghai*

"Can i take a picture with you?"

*blank face*

okies, i had a picture taken with him. erm, i have no idea how to post it up. guess i will just put it in my friendster. He is really very round.

2 days later, at this moment that i recall this incident, my heart softens.

This is the power of memories.